cantescapethefate

    So I want to know what the fuck is a self confidence really? Well maybe none of this applies to anything not even a self confidence. What I'm thinking of and trying to say is how do I come across such a magical thing  or acquire one or even (miraculously) develop one. I can't get one if I don't really know what it is. Sometimes I wonder if it tries to slowly creep into my life though by my occasional Idon'tgivearatsass attitude. I don't reallly know. However what brought me here in the middle of the night to talk about it was when it hit me that the lack of the self confidence in me(?) effects my fashion. Now that probably sounds HELLA si

ohkay. i haven't been on here enough because my retard self obviously hasn't been here enough beacause i keep getting pissed when ever this yp thing pops up on the computer when i'm on dev. and at first i was all "WTF IS THIS SHIT?!?!", then i got a closer look. And i guess deviant art is ATTEMPTING to HELP but it seems to me its a tad of a fail. or maybe its cuz i  don't know how to use it yet. TAT well, if anyone can teach id love to know. PS: i did some stuff on the whole 'deviantart muro' and i want to know if my attempts are at least half decent.

well, people are shitty as usual. Majority of teachers hate me. As do I. (i hate that i cant type without looking at the keys, i am a failure with; drawing,friends, people, provideing things others want from me, school. even if i dont get f's i feel... i have failed.) i'm sick of this. i want to be able to complete things, feel accomplished, to feel like I've ACTUALLY succeeded in something. i cant even get things with my self right, and that makes it that much harder to help all the people who ask me for it. but, how can i tell those people i cant help them at the moment because i need to fix me at the moment? huh... i wonder how many of yo